I found this really exciting challenge/prompt list/writing excercise called “30 days of D/s” on LovingBDSM and I love writingprompts so I am totally going to do this. IF you get through the whole text i would love to heat your input. Leave a comment or send me an email!
Also, as a bonus, my T/Dominant/Husband decided to join in the fun so we have both written our answers without seeing the other ones first. You will find his answer at the end of this post. None if us has seen the others asters before posting but we do discuss them afterwards.
What is submission for me?
First of all I have to say that I find the sub-prompts (haha) for submission is way less interesting than those of yesterday‘s promise for dominance. It’s more about practical stuff for submission and for dominance it was very much focused on emotion and character. Why is this? Is it the idea of reducing a submissive to “a thing” or someone who just does things? Or am I just reading too much into these questions …
For me submission is the place where I find the part of my personality that I like the most. The everyday-Brianna is very focused on everybody else’s comfort, having everybody see her and to give her attention, to make sure that she always does the right thing at the right time so that everybody will like her and to make sure that everything flows perfectly in every way. My mind is very noisy. I always compare it to a browser Internet browser that has way too many tabs open. On one tab there’s music playing, another one there’s a video, there is a porno starting somewhere and pop ups are constantly interrupting and impossible to block. (You have fun with that…)
When I get into a state of submission it’s like the whole world, including my brain, just slows down. Must be this way that everybody else experience the world. When this happens I am able to be close to my husband and have him take care of me. But to be able to calm down enough to let all be able to handle my emotions and physical acts of affection I need to be taken to that place of submission with constant monitoring and attention. The longer I am able to stay in my submissive emotions, the more I can resist things trying to distract me.
Does a submissive have certain behaviors?
No. I think submission is unique for every person who wants to be a submissive and to submit. Like with everything else in our lives everything is so influenced by who we are, what we have experienced and we are we are headed. How could I pursue to say that all submissive have this behavior in common? It would just be silly.
For me doing household chores as an act of submission is totally unthinkable. Service in that way is not part of my submission at all. For me it is all based in some way or another in sex. So for example is my husband would like to change a certain behavior (for example me always placing my bra in the same place at home because I can never find it. Seriously. Every day. Like today it was literally 20 minutes ago. ) he would have to connect it in someway to something that has to do with my sexual submission. I feel like I am more a sex slave in combination with being controlled in other areas as well that me, my husband or both of us thinks would benefit us in some way.
The one rule we have at the moment is based on the problem I had that as soon as I got into bed in the evenings I lost all energy to do any play. Having to be given permission (and denied) to get into bed keeps the energy up.
Do submissives do specific tasks?
Again, no, because I can’t talk for all submissives. I am pretty sure there are a lot of things that many or even most submissive do but I don’t think that is important. I don’t think specific tasks make a submissive.
When you think of a submissive and submission, what thoughts come to mind?
I think just as with dominance, submission is very dangerous. The reason why you go into either role is very central to figuring out how healthy the exchange will be. I love submission partly because gives me a break from the more energy demanding parts of my life and partly because I have always been turned on by so many of the things and acts that has to do with submission.
I have had very happy and safe life. Nothing truly bad has ever happened to me and I have no childhood trauma that I carry with me into my submission. The same with my husband. He has had a very happy childhood. Whatever made him turn his kinks this way, I think that I have been a big part in developing his love for this kind of power exchange. He didn’t think that he would like hurting me as much as he did when we really started to up our pain-game. Very glad he did catch up with me with his kinks finally.
I like to think that I am a very intelligent person. I do not want to submit to my husband because I think that his judgement is so much better that mine is. We both know I am way smarter that he is. Ok, so we have different areas of intelligence then. My area is everything and his area is unimportant random facts. I also don’t think that women in anyway are inferior to men. That is a structural problem of society and it’s just idiotic. It is me as a person and not me as a woman who wants to submit to T as a person. Not because he is a man. (It doesn’t mean that I can’t be turned on because of the fact that I am a small, weak woman and he is a tall, strong man sometimes. I am actually able to have both these ideas at the same time. (I know. Me, a woman, using my brain for thinking. Horrible thing.) If I had been a man and my partner a woman it would still have been me me bending over, spreading my legs and waiting to be used or spanked or…
THE OTHER SIDE
I love the way Brianna is a force of nature in all other aspects of our life: Immediately when she goes into a situation she dominates it. This happens everywhere except in our romantic and sexual relationship. This is where she can let go of all control and just follow.
The “submissive friends with benefits” I had before I Brianna were sub that didn’t obey or follow just for the sake of it. This is something I don’t like. It feels fake and forced. Brianna has from day 1 always been extremely responsive and obedient. I was actually a bit dumbfounded at first. I didn’t know what to do with the extreme level of power I suddenly had: I couldn’t just wait and respond to rule breaking but I actually had to plan things now.
It took a long time (about 8 years ergo the last month) to actually be able to handle it at a decent level.
For me the qualities of a real submissive is:
Responsiveness
Obedience
A need to be better and work to achieve this
To be able to let go of control
The thing I associate most with submission is trust. And fun!
In a stroke of luck I found Brianna who has all of the qualities above plus many more!
— T, the husband, the Dominant